GMP Training in Kuching

On a lighter note, the 2-days training in Kuching went well
*phew~ two years since I last conducted any proper training*

and it ended with some of the participants asking for photo shooting session
*holding the certificate and shaking hands with them, that kind..*
made me feel like a minister ;PPP
(nah, kidding~ dont really wanna be associated with political thingy this point of time... mess u dont wanna meddle with)

忘不了~

昨晚电视播了‘忘不了’
第一次的时候 (好像是5年前了！）
我哭得好惨！！
昨晚坐在电视机前面
当它做到 张柏芝和刘青云要送原岛大地去孤儿院那一场戏
我就立刻不看了
可是我进了房间准备要睡了 还是控制不了我脑袋所想的东西
眼泪也不停的流

我相信当我们看戏的时候
一些会令我们觉得难过的戏份
除了因为演员们演得好
另一个原因就是 观众本身也体会过类似的经验

那场戏 令我想起
我大概10岁时发生的一件事
那件事让我得知我家里的经济问题
也就是这件事 让我好像突然成熟了一些
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那天晚上 大舅舅打了电话来我家
妈妈听了就开始哭
然后就和爸爸开始吵架
我和妹妹都吓呆了 只是懂得在一旁哭
（我爸瞒着我妈跟大舅舅借了好大笔钱）

他们吵了一段时间后
妈妈说带我和妹妹出去买东西吃
爸爸开车载我们出去
然后好像是到了一个有些店的地方
妈妈叫爸爸停车 说她要下车
妈妈下车后
爸爸突然对着我和妹妹 好大声的说
‘你们还不下车（去追妈妈）？ 妈妈要走了 以后也不会来的了！！'
我和妹妹都吓得傻了
哭着冲出车
向着妈妈抱
叫妈妈回来 不要走~
当然妈妈也忍不住

那个晚上是一个好漫长的晚上
我还记得睡觉时 （我和妹妹是跟妈妈一起睡的）
半夜妈妈醒来用厕所
我吓醒了 第一时间问她 ‘你要去哪里？’
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这件事 我想我到几时都
忘不了~

Ipoh~~~do you want me to come back? or do i want to go back?

just came back from Kuching
and just feel like blogging a few lines before i sleep
while i was conducting training in Kuching
this company called me
and the HR person expressed deep interest in taking me
and the place is very near grandmother's house
and salary sounds not bad
prospect..well, from the surface at least..looks good
...so should i go back to Ipoh and work then?
really tempting...since i got a bit tired of KL's hectic-ness
I wanted something more laid back (heck, really miss Europe..slow and easy...the people there LIVE...we've got a long way to learn from them on how to LIVE!!)
so that I could sometimes do some sky-staring if you know what i mean;PPP
(btw i really love Kuching, it's been more than two years since i last went there also for work, and the city looks really good...nothing like KL, which I just love)

KFC的魅力 小狗‘大狗’也爱！

呵呵呵;PP
今天妹妹去吃KFC
就打包了一块鸡回家
结果。。。
晚上十点
妹妹把那块几鸡番热
搞到小狗 （我家狗狗Mango）和大狗（那就是我了;P)
都要分妹妹那块鸡来吃
气死她了
哈哈哈

Zaanse Schans, The Netherlands

I have segregated some of these pics when I was sorting out all my photos some months ago when I just got home
and I have wanted to post them up here in this little space of mine
so finally... here they are ;-)

These photos are taken in Zaanse Schans, The Netherlands (Holland)
Zaanse Schans is really a very very nice, small peaceful little place
If only I could build a small little cottage over there ;PPPP

Royal Tramp 鹿鼎記

hehe...Panda, u reminded me that I wanted to blog a bit on this show
it's nice, I actually like the earlier episodes more though
(where 韦小宝and康熙were still kids)
the kid who played 韦小宝 is especially cute and he's so so good with the character!!!
and there were a few scenes between 小韦小宝and小康熙which were very very heart warming
(ah~ i love those kind of scenes, it's like drinking a cup of hot chocolate, hehe!!;PP)
okie dokie, cut my crap...off to watch TV now;PPP
(to hxll with work tonight...ophhs sorry, I am being so so rude;PPP)

Sweet Talk~@_@

Sweet talk...
we all love to listen to sweet talk, don't we?
..but seriously it depends on WHO says it...
if your boss is doing the sweet talk
then...beware~~~

boss wants me to stay and so he's telling me things which I later find not to 'accurate'
*ahem*...that spells dangerous...
meaning then, what ever he 'promises' might not be the actual real thing...

and this saturday he'll be bringing a few other people to 'sweet talk' me *scary thinking about this* and make me say out the confirmation whether I am staying or leaving...
gosh gosh~~ now what is it that I want...still a try in this messy company~ or leave without a job...my brain just give up on logic thinking when it encounter this stupid issue...thanks to the stupid owner of the brain...sighz...

sorry to those who keeps reading the same old complaint...just please ignore me...but yeah, i do pity the few of you who visit my blog...

where are my ads?!

hmm...noticed a moment ago...
the ads on this pathetic blog of mine, they are gone??!!!
come back my ads~~~come back~~!!

Guinea Worms~~~~??!!

Guinea pigs are very very very cute...

...but Guinea worms?!

AAAArrggghhhhh~~~~ @_@
send shivers down my spine! euuuwwww @_@

I've never heard of this kind of worm until I read Star Two yesterday (18 June 2008) and from the article it's a serious thing in Sudan...

check out the picture and u'll know what I mean *brrrr...shivers*

(the white strand of string like or rather spaghetti like thingy is the worm~~~)

and some lines really tell u how disgusting the worm(s) are

"Each one marks the spot where a Guinea worm – a spaghetti-like waterborne parasite up to 1m long – pushed out of his skin.
After living inside its host for up to 14 months, the long worm, often known as the “fiery serpent”, releases chemicals to soften the flesh, making a blistering, pus-filled wound. It then pushes out so it can deposit around a million larvae"

...

"Volunteers use tools like a forked toothpick, which they roll between finger and thumb, twisting the worm around it. Often the worm is wrapped around the victim’s muscles, making the process extremely painful"

photo and full article from The Star Online

http://thestar.com.my/health/story.asp?file=/2008/6/18/health/21552714&sec=health

...the fish who never say no

haiz.....
my boss is persuading me to stay...=.=''
he seemed to be able to read my mind
and i swear i never told a thing!!!!
how can that be????!!!!!
*perhaps then it's proving how transparent I am that everyone could see through me??*
*I am really hopeless I guess...dead~~~*

and so with that, he was telling me things which I feel was like so true...
arrghhhh...I am splitted in between....what should I do...???
havent got a job yet...so meaning I stay...? but the company is stressing me like hell~~~~

will the fish (I am a pisces, a pathetic pisces that is =.=") who never say no under normal circumstances...will she say no this time....??!!
ahhhh~~~ i dunno ler...what to say, yes or no??!!
wuwuwu~~~someone get a big stick and knock me off...

Take me! Take me!

Calling to all BIG FOOD Cos~~~
I am available....!!!
humble and hardworking~~
keen to learn~~
what else? what else?
Oh just...Take me! Take me!! Take me!!!

(buoy, never sounded so desperate before...this is terrible =_=")

I need motivation!!!

hmmm...before I go on blabbering...
Carla, if you see this...thanks for visiting my blog...;-)

so yeah, passed 'love letter' to boss but he's trying to make me stay...
sighz...
but i am really so demotivated now i even feel like quitting the industry totally!!
feels like i am good for nothing...
it doesnt help at all that mum's worrying like mad..
and starting to nag already...
sighz...
but i really can't make myself to stay any longer!!!
feel so stressed out that my body is going havoc...my monthly matter is going havoc..not sure if it's the stress and worries causing that to go crazy...or that M and the hormone factor are actually driving me crazy...
but well jokes aside i really need to go and see a doctor for this...shouldnt joke around too much when the monthly business is not getting regular...argghhh...

apart from that now it's of coz the worries of my soon jobless period..wonder how long wud it last?...even big cos might not consider me for any QC function...malaysian based big cos i mean...people would probably think when they see my CV...master's degree?!...previous consultancy background?! is this person trying to fool around?! does she intend to stay long!? that kind of questions i think...well, I really hope that at this point of time i am thinking too much...but i really think there's rationale in this thinking...Ajinomoto and a few others I applied for, are not replying...NestlX said that there's nothing matching my capacity...so well...i am digging into others...pray hard...我会尽力 希望上天有安排吧！
stress stress stress...money and bills gonna go crashing into each soon...pray hard i get a job soon...but i dont want to make myself so desperate (it looked like i already made it so by now) that i start diving into anything that comes...this really shouldnt be the way...dont want to be simply grabbing anything and only later realize it's not anything i want...
sigh sigh sigh...>.<

and another sign of me in trouble.. i seemed to have forgotten to visit other blogs...so sorry...need to gather my pieces back...

Listen...and Watch...

listening to Raymond Lam Fung's album 爱在记忆中找你

...and what to Watch Out for?

L for Love, L for Lies - 我的最爱's out on VCD/DVD...so look out it (hmm hope it's out in M'sian video outlets)

A very peaceful Sunday

Today suddenly feels so peaceful
It’s 12.30 in the afternoon…
Mum’s taking a nap after a full morning working in the kitchen…
Sis’ still in bed;PP…(if not mistaken she woke up wee hours in the morning to chat with her bf)
Mango’s alternating between mum’s and sis’s room, lazing around…and occasionally jumps up and ran out to the living room, barking as she heard the doggie upstairs…this occasionally breaks the silence

but apart from that..
it feels really...really peaceful…
the sky’s clear
the sun’s mild
the birds’ chirping
the breeze’s so soothing
as I’m sitting in the living room working on my lap top
occasionally gazing across the sky
(I stay on the 16th floor…and when I look out from the balcony from where I’m sitting in the living room, it is the sky that took up the entire view)

and it's been a while since I last sat and ‘feel the environment around me’ like this;PPP

我想要什么？

今天早上把辞职信email给我老伴和他的partner
不过他们居然没回应
不会是想当没回事吧？
其实另一位senior昨晚刚刚也辞职
（就是说公司同时没有了我们两个 full time staffs，
其实公司也只有我们两个full time 的）

不知道老板想搞什么花样
没回应我
不过怎样都好
也是生效的了
把hard copy 送到office就不能当没回事了

至于我。。。
辞职。。可以‘送这口气’
不过整个人却是很不开心。。。
唉~东西下个月张价
而我就辞职
不过不辞职的话我就快忍不住这个老板了 真的会疯掉

真的不知道到底现在自己想要什么~~~

=.="

today...took 2 hours 30mins to get home from work (the same amount of time that needed to get back to my grandmother's house in Ipoh)

...it rained cats and dogs... during the initial and smoother part of the 'journey', my SLK (small little 'kelisa') was almost flung to one side due to heavy water splashes from other 'giant cars' (luckily I was not the driver, but my 'heavy-weight' father was driving, so we were safe;PPP)

..simultaneously, the hottest topic on the radio...none other than petrol price increase!! and nope, not from August...but well, dont you 'love' our government's efficiency this time round? from tomorrow!!!
(now ever since when they've become this efficient?) i 'love' you for this, dear gov!! =_="

and so, u imagine, heavy rain, coupled with petrol increase from 12am onwards...(therefore all cars queued-up and jammed-up all petrol stations, hence the roads too)...this explained my 2.30 hours journey back home...

and then at night, a small surprise...ahem, better chinese from this point onwards
老伴透过他的partner send了一封email给我
是e-letter of confirmation（中文怎么写？;PPP 晕~）
他应该是‘感觉’到了我另外那位同事想走了
所以最赶快想confirm我？
不过爸爸说
明天拿了五月的薪水才通知他我也要辞职啦
忍不住他的做事方式了！
而我那位senior同时也是明天要给大信封
看来他明天真的可以准备包血管
不好意思 我这次真的好坏